Love Her, She Loves You Back

happy tuesday[?]

2012-02-14T04:48:00.000-08:00

yi huei treated us to eat homemade chocolate cake!

And its delicious i gotta admit!

then stayed back to go for rengga's tuition.

Im too lazy to talk about the lousy school of mine..

Haiz..

Then at rengga, almost the whole class fell asleep. x)

exhausted yo. :)

and guess what i wrote on the dirgahayu bahasaku book?

'14/2/2012 -date with rengga-'

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

and yeahh

found 2 lovely words in

KAMUS DEWAN EDISI KE-3

example:

pokai

bo-lui

im still figuring out what word to find

then chatted with my bro till now.

Waiting for his reply.

oh and ya.

The bro that im talking about is yit huan.

The OTHER ONE IS OUTTA MY LIFE ALREADY fyi.

Its annoying seeing things that im not suppose to see which will reminds me of the whole thing...

Over && over again.

Oh godd...

Toodles :)

FAMOUS amos! :P

2012-02-13T06:58:00.000-08:00

nothing much happen today.

But we keep disturbing allysia to buy for us famous amos as a valentine's present.

Such a misery one.

Till we have to force people

then had a short meeting for basketball

and

we have decided on what things to dedicate. :)

now my job is to ask for teacher's permission yo! :D

~~*to members out there, sorry that i've been too unfair during the first meeting. Im not good as saying sorry. So yeahhh*~~

~~is there anyone out there gonna give me chocolate tomorrow?~~

~~:D nyehehehehehe~~

AWKWARD! :O

2012-02-12T04:09:00.000-08:00

at a food court near malim and guess what i saw? -,- a guy who is sitting somewhere nearby me is actually playing with his armpit's HAIR!! Like wtf? Or maybe its just a string at his shirt. BUT BELOW HIS ARMPIT?! Are you serious?! Urghhh... So gross! @@ everyone seems to be happy without me.. Look likes im meant to be forever alone. D:

stalk AGAIN :P & list of stuffs

2012-02-10T06:11:00.000-08:00

sacrifice my ego-ness and add all those people that i wna stalk

i dont have any idea why i stalk them

its either they're too ah lian-ish

they're too pretty

i hate them

im just plain jealous of them

the things i want ~~*at the moment*~~ :D

err

memory card for my phone

polaroid film

~~lots of it~~

bracelets

make-up products

HAHAHAAHAHAHA im so girl-girl already

~~even ah jo becoming girlish~~

handbag

there's this kind of ring

THAT I WANTED BADLY!

but still cant be found yet

dont you think that its awesome?

:DD

there's more to go and i cant think of any at the moment

IM GONNA GET ALL THESE THINGS FROM TIME TO TIME!

compulsaryy

or i'll just steal certain things from my sis

story end :D

oh ya!

1 more thing i want the most that no one can gives me besides god

which is

happiness :)

toodles :)

BASKETBALL rules!

2012-02-09T08:02:00.000-08:00

hehehehe basketball court is too awesome that even st john and bola tampar wna take away our place. :/ unfortunately, they cant. :P its because we ruleee! -.- this is so lame. 'if you cant take the pain, then stay off the court!' :) its written at the back of our club's shirt. Awesome shit! :DD toodles :)

Quotes :D

2012-02-08T08:37:00.000-08:00

hi. Remember me? Because you are the first one to break my heart without knowing it

sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do because sometimes you can mean nothing to someone who means so much to you. IT'S NOT PRIDE. IT'S SELF RESPECT!

Wow... I love this 2 quotes ;)

sounds like im heartbroken right now..

Hahahaha

nahh...

Im not.

Just love these quotes :)

toodles :)

aiya...

2012-02-07T07:54:00.000-08:00

i feel that there's a distance between me and my friends already. Especially with those who're in different class. Well, who cares right? They got their own way of life and i got mine. I dont give a shit about all these stuffs. As if they gonna think about me when they found their new friends. Pffftttt... YAWWNNNN! I could sense that everyone is keeping a secret from me. Every little dirty secrets. Eh miss, i cant see it from your face. Dont hide. If you're keeping something away from me, DONT EXPECT ME TO TELL YOU MY LITTLE SECRET TOO. Its suffocating keeping things to myself and knowing that people hiding things away from you. Is it better to say 'i know but i cant tell you' rather than 'i dont know'? I dont need more problems. Thanks. -,- im so bored and STUPID to be frust because of these. All people say were 'eh we're friends. Tell me lahh...' get to know d, spread out! Oh ya, please dont ask me who was i talking about. If you think its you, then its you. Toodles :)

new person in my dictionary of LIFE :)

2012-02-05T06:07:00.000-08:00

just texted yit huan that i saw a kid looks like him

and

the kid is cute

seriously! :O

then i dont know how the hell we texted

until

he said that he'll call me as his SISTER from today onwards

:))))

nyehehehehehe

i hope he's gonna be a great bro for me

even though

we hardly talk even though face to face

well,

its because he's more of a quiet type of person

and obviously,

i hope we'll stay on as brother and sister

as long as

like me and francis

he's my bro for about 3 years already

wow

time past fast! O.O

unlike ....

-,-

the weird thing we're still awkward when we talk to each other

~~or maybe its just me?~~

hahahaha

nvm

we'll get better after some time :)

anyway,

yst went to library with lau

saw aireen

and

get to know 3 new friends

well, we saw them before

but didnt really talk to them :/

at night is the best!!

WE OWN THE LIBRARY!

hahahahaha

no other people besides 5 of us :D

i bought the belt that i badly wanted already at F.O.S.

:))

and ITS FREAKING CHEAP!

compared to all the shops

nyehehehehhehe

ah jo and mich,

you guys know what to do d lah eh?

can cancel that thing off from the list of things as my birthday present

muahahahhahaha

oh and ya,

my sis bought a new purse for me

its coach brand and all the way from U.S.

its nice and sweet

lovely thing :))

toodles :)

ah jo follow my style already? :P

the one i LOVE

2012-02-03T10:05:00.000-08:00

she has been with me for like 4 years plus

i love her
im afraid of her death

what if she dies and left me alone

no one to accompany me when im afraid

no one for me to play with when im bored or cant sleep

i really do love her

CNY CELEBRATION!

2012-02-03T02:47:00.000-08:00

today is the cny celebration at school

and trust me

I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO SAYY!!

~~it might be boring~~

reaches school at 6.50

brisk walking to the prefect's room and i left my bag at the bench

then did my duty

THANK GOD ITS MY LAST WEEK OF CARRYING CHAIRS FOR ASSEMBLY

yayyy!

then the celebration started with the ~~lousy~~ lion dance

-.-

its not as fun as last time

where the lion chased 1 of the teachers :P

then went for station duty

and told kalee that my bag is still on the bench! ~~forever alone~~

she laughed like mad but dont wna help me to take

~~so called need to jaga muka~~

but still

she helped me anyway

:)) thanks ya!

hehehehehehe

then mr wee came to wish us

and i asked for ang pao

hehehehe

the usual me xD

and you know what?

he actually gave me the ang pao

ang pao for president, vice and secretary is included

:))))

mine 5bucks

theirs are 2bucks

haizz

better than nothing

besides, he's still single

anyone interested?

HAHAHAHAHAHA

ah jo, i will not answer your questions anymore

almost every post has your name

and

special column somemore

ish ish

when will there be a special post for me huh?

hey hey!

we need the same thing!

which is

MEMORY CARD FOR THE PHONE!!

mine only 2GB

so small -.-

lets make this way

i buy yours as birthday present and you buy mine as birthday present

deal?

hahahahahahahha

*lian hwe, take note* :P

come to think of it,

lian hwe can give me other things

which i've told you

nyehehehehe

okay

im so evil

keep asking for presents from friends

-,-

*lau, take note too* :D

toodles :)

nothing much :|

2012-02-02T08:23:00.000-08:00

heyy :D

school was normal this week

every morning i find lian hwe and ah jo to chat

and

i'll check out if they still copying answers or not

Y U NO FIND ME IN THE MORNING?

hahahahhaa

then slept during sej period

~~best time to sleep :D~~

oh ya!

BEST PERIOD OF THE DAY

BM!

hahahahaha

pn yong is so damn cute

make us laugh like mad and lau said that i laugh the loudest and everyone was looking at me

oh crap :X

then i realise that i left my water bottle at the canteen

-________________-

me: err teacher, blh saya pergi canteen?

pn yong: canteen? why?

me: my water bottle left at there *laughing*

pn yong: oh okok. ingatkan kamu sangat lapar nak pergi makan

*then almost the whole class laugh*

after school went to find yit huan again

before my mum come and pick me up

seriously, thats the first time i see there's a bunch of notes for just a particular subject

@.@

then went back to school

and suddenly 4 people told me that they wna quit basketball

and my first reaction is

WTH?!

then i have to be a counselor

-.-
discussed with them whats the reason of it

at first they dont wna tell,

after talking like nobody's business only they tell

now i have more problems to solve!

then we talked bout lots of stuffs

from quitting bsktball end up with wifi

hahahahahaha xD

then went back home

and here comes the best part

lie on the bed while playing handphone

and

i didnt even realise that i've already dozed off

till the alarm rang like crazy

and im still sleeping like a ~~dead pig~~!

ah jo,

no matter what,

i really cant give you my password

it is privacy

toodles :)

toodles && msg to the guys :)

2012-01-29T07:44:00.000-08:00

ah jo,

toodles actually means goodbye in french

~~*okay i admit. i googled it*~~

hehehehehe

okayy

i dont know what to post about

i dont think im gonna post the pictures of my outfit for the week

im too lazy

should i post?

i'll just wish you good luck

despite all those lies

and being used like a white mice for an experiment

im lucky enough that you've realised

i may not be as pretty as her

i may not be as thin as her

i may not be as funny as her

i may not be as gorgeous as her

i may not be as tall as her

i may not be as cheerful as her

i may not be as special as her

i may not be as polite as her

but

let me tell you this

i bet that i'll find a guy who likes the way i am

weird, short, chubby, fat, not so pretty, clumsy and a girl who acts like a boy

:))

and you 'll think that

'damn! i've made a mistake'

hehehehehehehehe

this is just so random

its not meant for anyone

but its for those guys from the future and the past of my life

ps: i dont have any ex-es... dont get it wrong :)

toodles :)

open house YO!!! whee~

2012-01-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

i'll take it as i posted this yesterday :P

woke up at 10am

thanks to my dad's alarm clock -,-

then i got nothing to do at all

but helped to refill the cookies into the containers

then chatted with shaun, winnie and my gay friend, MAK!

hehehehe

before i even get ready,

family members and mum's friend came

rushed into the bathroom and bathe like a lightning

LIAN HWE came first

with her awesome long red dress!

where did you get it ya?

i've been trying to find these kind of dresses for some time already

then,

mich, ah jo and eunice came

all at the same time

hahahahha

they actually thought my house is the multi colour KINDERGARDEN!

hahahahahahahahaha

then,

daeroy came with his PINK shirt

and his awkward expression

HAHAHAHA

~~sorry that it was awkward at first :P~~

then,

aaron, joyce, stev and the rest came

i hate the atmosphere

SERIOUSLY

-.-

after that had fun gambling

till

YIT HUAN CAMEEE!!!

hahahhahaa ;)

im lazy to update more

but overall,

i think its great :P

its because i won yo!!

im sorry that i cant entertain everyone

and im seriously in a bad mood too actually

cant help it

:)))

then came to my cousin's house and gambled

lost rm4 only though

used my dad's money

now my cousins and their friends playing mah jong with a special way!

they use the cushion and the err towel[?]
~~instead of mah jong table :)~~

toodles :)

2012-01-27T21:19:00.001-08:00

ZHIHWE IS AWESOME :P

EUNICE, this is for you :)

2012-01-27T09:57:00.000-08:00

im so awesome in stalking people

hahahaha

eunice, you're 1 of them

anyway, WHO IS THAT GUY??

hahahahahaha

dont get heart attack

whats wrong?

if you're brave enough,

ask him if he likes someone or not

if he ask why,

reply to him that you likes him ~~JOKINGLY~~

*remember to add no la after that*

who knows you might get a good result right?

*winks*

HAHAHAAHAHAAH

but sometimes i gotta admit that being playful with him

unofficially

is better than official relationships

i dont know why i think that way

maybe because you guys can act as a couple while you guys are still close friends

BUT

it might be your worst day ever when you guys decided to stop all these

well,

shit happens right?

so yeahh

take your time

2012 definitely not gonna happen :D

~~its because THE WORLD CANNOT END when im still unmarried yet!~~

*i actually googled it like mad just to find this quote*

you can always find me when you need someone to share your feelings with

it cant be kept in the heart forever :D

did you feel touched after reading this?

HAHAHAHAH

IM AWESOME!

toodles :)

being LEFT BEHIND! :O

2012-01-26T22:49:00.000-08:00

wow! I was being left behind while others getting the top news. EVEN THE NEW FRIEND? Feels like im just a typical stranger to you huh? Finee whatever. I dont care. I'll just think that IM NOT SUPPOSE TO KNOW ABOUT IT while others like YOUR NEW FRIEND get to know. -,- oh great. Life's awesome :') now, in my dictionary of life, i aint gonna tell anyone about anything whether it is a good news or a bad 1... Im just gonna leave you guys hanging and know how it feels like. -.-

its just so shitty :/

2012-01-26T09:43:00.000-08:00

Then they'll start telling their problems to their new friends,which make me feel like stabbed.It's like ,because your friend don't trust you and they think you're not reliable enough so they 'd rather tell their problems to someone who they just knew.Oh wow.Best feeling ever.

quoted by miss ah lian lene :)

thats sorta true though...
im giving up :)
there's nothing else to say till the day comes
and thats the only day that i know

chillax yo
its just FRIENDship problem
there's more to come, honney :))

well,
nothing special happened this week of holiday
x)
i shall post stuffs about cny at the next post
with some of the pictures
of my daily clothing during cny
:P
please do give some comments but not harsh 1 alright?
:D

OH YA!
is there something wrong with the blog?
why there's nowhere that i can change colours and stuff?
hmm...

btw,
HI LIAN HWE && MICH!!

toodles :)

FATS!! :(

2012-01-24T08:38:00.000-08:00

there's double layer of it on my stomach when i sit :( mission diet CONFIRM ON after cny :P

surprisingly, FRIEND

2012-01-23T04:01:00.000-08:00

WOW!

i didnt know that even my close friend are this type of person

found new friends

neglected the old ones

and started to mix around with the new ones alot!

-.-

i know lah they're guys and we're girls

sometimes im like that too

but then

oi!

you totally neglected us(or maybe just me?)

i dont know whether you're reading my blog or not
but yeahh
this is what im gonna say right now

your blog is all about

jamming

jamming
~~dont you just get bored of it?~~
yeah..
you have your right in having fun and stuff
then
neglected us
tryna be good with you
and all you're busy with is with that ~~damn~~ guitar

but i feel that its not you
the usual YOU
or maybe you've shown your true self already?

i always make a mistake
again
and
again
-.-
AND IM BORED OF IT
i shall NOT be close with anyone else anymore

thats all i can say....

toodles :)

IDK why is this happening!

2012-01-22T08:31:00.000-08:00

im actually shivering.

whether it is fear

angry...

definitely not cold

while im typing this

i shiver

i dont know why...

its like something bad gonna happen to me

God, please..

stop all these

its suffering

heck YEAH!

2012-01-21T22:22:00.000-08:00

everyone enjoyed themselves at the party esp mich and ah jo(based on their blog) and im the only 1 didnt enjoy myself. -,- life's awesomeee... Nobody cares. nobody understands. Even blogging cant express how i feel. Till i found someone who's as bored as me! At least i can freaking complain to someone who knows HOW IT FEELS!!! Urgghhh.. Everyone keep blogging bout how awesome/good bout the party while im blogging bout the opposite about it. Im lame. Thanks. -.-

get your OWN gang/ friend -,-

2012-01-21T10:44:00.000-08:00

dude, cant get your own friend? When there's any event that you've made, all of the friends that you invited are my friends. Where the hell is yours for goodness sake? -.- its so LOL when i saw that someone im close with turn out to be the 1 that you're so-called-close with... Yes, im selfish in friendship *whatever you call it* I DIDNT KNOW THAT YOU'RE SOOOO CLOSE WITH THEM... Out of 10, 9 are the ones you're not that close with at all. -.-

badminton && zhi hwe's birthday PARTYY!!

2012-01-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

okay.

so, here's my blog

and this is where im gonna let out my hidden feelings

and what im gonna say maybe hurting

but yeahh :)

so, here's it

in the morning went to malim primary school to play badminton with winnee and daveen

its been some time that i've seen mr daveen!

he's BALD!!!!

so cute!

ahahahahha

then played badminton with them

and im suck at it

-.-

then played chess half way with winnee first

I WON!

hohohoho

even though daveen helped me a little

but if its not the first move i took, he wouldnt have thought of how to win it

ate her queen at the beginning already

hahahahahaha

then played with daveen

and i've lost :(

he's a pro

then went back home to do my nails

SPENT LOTS OF TIME

and its still freaking ugly

-______________________________-

then prepare to go to zh's birthday party

was hoping it to be good

but as i've thought,

its kinda boring

~~sorry~~

maybe its because too many people and she have to entertain everyone

i get it :)

but then there's someone there who makes me even regret going to the party

-,-

that fella makes me felt annoyed, irritate and last but not least, feel like slapping that fella

-.-

and MICHELLE ONN

actually left me and jolene aside

while she enjoyed jamming with them

but then

TAN JOLENE

got people to be with too

-________-

they said that i'll leave them alone

but end up, i was left

-.-

~~thanks guys~~

then mich want me to sit beside .....,

and FYI

i dont freaking want and i'll never will okayh?!

i get annoyed these days

sighh

zh, i gotta admit that

im jealous of your life :)

enjoy it to the fullest

you'll never know what ahead you

peace out!

toodles :)

laughable-DAY :D

2012-01-19T07:43:00.000-08:00

hell yeah!

i've quit band

and the feeling is freaking awesome

~~i gotta admit!~~

but its weird that there's some kind of weird atmosphere between me & pei yin & gling

its like super weird

shall i ignore?

hmm...

anyway,

during sej time,

we helped to decorate the class with all those ang pao's

since i've done my homework and am super bored

its pretty amazing

and it just brighten up my cny mood

whenever im bored, i can always talk to the ang pao fishes which were hanging on the window

which is just right beside where i sat

yeah. i talk to the fishes like a retarded!

hehehe

then last period of bm

the time when it made me cry

not coz of sad

but its bcoz i laugh too much

S: eh V. wna ask you. which is heavier? *holding the long exercise books and the small exercise books*

V: *selamba punya pattern* you're heavier

HAHAHAHHAHA

okay.

it may not be funny when i told you guys

but

trust me

when you're at that time,

you'll be

LYFAO!!!!!

then

had basketball meeting

but only with committees

thanks to the rain yo -.-

talked about everything

this year, basketball club gonna be SUPERB SYSTEMATIC!!

have to see who's the president and the vice :P

nyehehehehe

learnt from last year's lesson

so we're gonna make this year's club to be awesome

:DD

then played basketball

another hilarious thing happen

eunice c. was holding the ball

and eunice l. wna took it

but eunice c. hugging the ball and dont wna give her

guess what happen?

eunice l. trying to grab the ball

and

ACCIDENTALLY

~~maybe on purpose :P~~

grabbed eunice c.'s boobs

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

straight shout like mad

and i was laughing at the astaka like an idiot

from standing, i laugh till i sat on the ground

and still continue laughing

and yeah,

when i laugh HARD,

i really do laugh like a super massive mad idiotic people

-,-

thats how i enjoy the moment which we cant snap it with a camera ;)

at tuition,

mr huan changed clarice's place

:(((

she became quiet while me and choott still talking

then sir call us to write our wish on a piece of sugar paper(whatever you called it)

and guess what i wrote?

wrote it with liquid paper saying

"WE'RE SMART AND WE KNOW IT! :)"

HEHEHEHEHE

actually i wanted to write

we're sexy and we know it ;)

but choot call me to write smart

so yeahh

hehe

i know

so perasan

but who cares right?

someone just told me something i dont ~~FREAKING WNA KNOW~~!!!!

-.-

thanks for telling

you just 'brighten up' my day

toodles :)

sh*t!

2012-01-17T07:40:00.000-08:00

saw something weird on my bed moving around....................................oh wait. Its a moth(whatever you spelled it). :P

BIRTHDAY present :(

2012-01-17T04:55:00.000-08:00

i gotta admit that i dislike to buy birthday present. :( i hate cracking my head of what to buy for that person... Besides, i hate doing too many things for people and wondering if they'll ever did the same thing for me... Oh wait. I think no one will. :) its because i believe that good deeds that i've done will never be appreciated or i might get a bad outcome. Instead of good. Okayy. Idk what im talking about. You understand can already. :D why la i so kepo to keep being incharge of what to buy presents for people.. T.T

message to my BRO

2012-01-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

we used to be so close

now not anymore

and i still dont understand why

we used to be so close till we know each other's secret which no one knows

used to tease each other about the secret

and sometimes, used it as a weapon if either 1 of us doesnt tell out something

hahahaah

sweet memories

idk why we turn out to be like this

hardly talk

sms without laughter or smile

no more superb long msg with craps

no more laugh out loud to each other's jokes

we've turned into strangers

.....

i used to spill out anything to my bro

and he'll keep it as a secret

now not anymore

he dont trust me anymore

and

i dont know why

based on that incident,

im the 1 who supposed to not to trust him

but now

its vice versa

it all started to get worst since we went for roller skate

till then

we started to become total strangers

now i've lost someone who i can share my sadness and laughter with

which is

my used-to-be-best-brother.

well,

what to do

people come and go in our lives

all shit happens

i wonder if we can get back like we used to

i dont think so

oh well

since he doesnt care,

why should i anymore?

its such a waste of tears, memories and even spaces in my heart

since my brother dont give a damn,

so will i then

what else can i say?

2012-01-15T04:43:00.000-08:00

3 freaking tuitions in a day.

life's AWESOME!

NOT!!

just after sej tuition and here's the convo between my dad and i

when we're talking about tuitions

me : very stress la *joking way*

dad : stress? *laughs* like that also stress? then on fb not stress lah?

me : .....

dad : *continues talking bout studying stuffs*

me : *remains silence throughout the journey*

yeah

thats my life

-.-

can i give up in studying?

can i just stop being a nerd?

can i just stop being so active?

can i just GIVE UP?

if any of my family members asked about studies negatively,

i will definitely let out whats inside of me

and

i dont give a ~~fuck~~ damn

i might even scold bad words

-.-

i dont care what they'll say

and

thats the negative side of me :(

since they're SHOOOO SMART!!

why dont they just have my life? :)

there's more to go

and im only 16+

there's college && university

i'll just hope that 2012 really do happens

but the day before it happens,

im gonna confess everything that i've kept in myself to everyone

had fun chatting with my friend about dating and missing each other

since im bored, i played with him about this :P

but still not sweet enough laaa ;)

~~im still trying to be positive~~

toodles :)

13.01.2012

2012-01-13T08:10:00.000-08:00

2nd post of the day

this morning did class rep

and

this little form 1 girl is so damn cutee

ahahahahahaa

she's afraid of us,prefects,as if we're gonna eat her up!

here's the conversation ;)

she : err prefect...

me : yeah?

she : can i cut this paper?

(the paper is her homework which she needs to cut and paste in her book)

me : huh?

she : *shows me the paper* can i cut?

(i thought she asked me how to cut -.-)

me : cut la. ahahaha why ask me? xD

she : because i scared you dont let me cut

me : *walks away and tried hard not to laugh out loud*

ahahahah!

first time i met such a girl xD

then stayed back for band -.-

but then me, mich and eunice went to dp/mp

to look for someone and something

;)

then there's 2 girls

actually giving out 2 free tickets

~~they dont have time watching it because they got classes to attend~~

thanks to band, we decided not to accept

thanks alot, BAND!

then reach band

get scolded

well, not really get scolded just that gling some sort of warning us

-.-

i've had enough of their nonsense

seriously!

then went for satay celup

yummyyy!

~~put on weight again :(~~

then went new jj & tesco

bought some groceries :)

passed by library to see if any of my friends there

but none of them was there

-,-

then went to cousin house

and manage to blog a little

and now stucking at home,

blogging

listening to music

but dont have the mood to finish up my homework

im drop dead tired! D:

desperately need my life back!

toodles :)

over-stressed[?]

2012-01-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

yeah, i think im over-stressed

and its all about

STUDIES

and basically,

its because of ~~SPM~~

i cant get it out of my head

i think about it every single time

since i've entered 5sc1

i dont feel happy in this class

looking at those smart people makes me feel worst

cant help thinking

what if i get bad results

what if i failed a paper

what if i missed a mark in exam in order to get A

what if i didnt get straight A's

what if i've made my family especially my sis and parents disappointed

what if everyone get shocked of my poor result although im in first class

sighhhh

parents put high hope on me

sister put high hope on me

uncles put high hope on me

aunts put high hope on me

cousins put high hope on me

friends put high hope on me

EVERYONE!

im just so stressed up!

and its just the beginning of 2012

~~fuck that~~

let me go...

can i give up on my studies?

noone will ever nag me

and im free to do stuffs i like

just like my sis

didnt get good result

but everyone feels that she's great

just because she's a strewardess

everyone has been asking about her

parents proud to tell everyone that she's a stewardess

why cant i just be like her?

wouldnt life be easy like that?

mum and her side of family discourages me becoming a vet

its my interest

i dont understand

this job is easy to earn money

but they say it didnt

sometimes i just wonder if the reason of my mum not wanting me to be a vet

is feeling embarrassed to tell people that her daughter work as a vet?

vet aint as pro as doctor?

they dont have the same level as doctor?

just because doctor is treating HUMAN and vet is treating ANIMALS?

-,-

i need shoulder to cry on

~~but not girls. it makes me feel uncomfortable~~

yes, i need a counselor BADLYYY

toodles :'(

DSLR

2012-01-12T08:16:00.000-08:00

Skyped with my sis yesterday. And she said that if i get good result(as in straight A's) she'll buy for me dslr.. Then my mum asked, how much was it and my sis said that at least also around rm3000. My mum like 'wahhh... Chrisann! Rm3000 leh!' actually i should be excited about it and wanted to get that dslr badly. Unfortunately, at that time, i felt nothing. As in NOTHING. :( i dont feel any happiness or excitement in me. Sigh... I feel more stress about it... there's noone in my family to give me advice about it or will even understand my feelings. Im gonna talk to my sis about it. :( toodles

emo LOVE songs :(

2012-01-09T07:13:00.000-08:00

damn! Listening to superb emo love songs really makes me wna cry. Just a simple song with simply lyrics could actually change someone's mood in split second. Listening to 1 particular song reminds me of someone. Memories that had made unofficially and will forever remain as memories. :/

stalking is AWESOME

2012-01-06T07:47:00.000-08:00

yes, i do stalk :)

actually i wanted to check tortoise out to see how's it going

then idk how the hell that i random click on people's profile

till

i found mutual friends

*J is a mutual friend of you and xxx*

LMAO!

oh ya

before i continued,

i was using other people's profile to stalk

not mine

i aint gonna tell who's that in order to not spill out the password

okay then

i was able to stalk J

*special thanks to """" *

although i cant stalk others

but

at least there's someone ~~interesting~~ for me to stalk

at first i was looking at her wall

then i found out that A(still remember him?) posted on her wall

something in chinese -__________-

this sunday am gonna ask lian hwe to read it for me

since she know most of it already

:)))

is some kind of love thingy

thats what i know

surprising huh?

its somewhere around 31/10/2011

then nvm...

i view her pictures

AND

i saw something again

ahahahaha

A commented : so beautiful

J replied : thanks <3

A replied : like you o~ haha

J replied : oh.. haha!

its weird...

i dont get it O.O

and she still can laugh -.-

its obvious that A likes her before

then suddenly he dislike her

due to some reasons which cant be told :)

but why her?

-.-

i mean if he likes her,

means that there's something in common in me and her which makes him like me too

so-called-like la...

DAMNN!

i freaking hate this the most

urghhh

then then

there's 1 girl who is A's friend added me

kinda surprise

but i accept la

then i view her pictures and found out that A liked almost every 1 of her picture

so i suspected that she's he's ex

i asked him

and he keep calling me not to ask the same question

JUST CURIOSITY YO!!!

just a simple yes or no is that hard to type meh?

-.-

okay now lets see who stalked me :)

there's

LIAN HWE!

LAU JIA YI!

who stalk and ask alot too. eh miss! its all in here la... all your ques are at here. dont lah keep asking. bising know? -.- ishhh ishh

TAN JOLENE!

MICHELLE ONN!

CLARICE YONG!

and last but not least

SERENE KONG!!

she asked me why i changed my blog link and if its bcoz of her x)

so i've decided to change back :)

i didnt know that they'll stalk me :P

toodles :)

nyehehehehe

2012-01-01T08:34:00.000-08:00

i love my current blog link :D

just read and shuddup

dont comment so much

i write, you read

and leave :)

so called I LIKE YOU :)

2011-12-29T11:15:00.000-08:00

damn!

yesterday night slept at 4.30 and woke up at 12.30 this ~~morning~~ afternoon

:))

sleeping like a pig is my job yo!

so, this is what happen in the morning

i've made my decision

and

i've decided not to give A a chance to be my FIRST bf

i repeat

FIRST

and guess what his answer is?

short,simple and superb ~~sweet~~ speechless

'nvm'

and i was like O.O

then i asked 'dont you feel anything?'

and he replied 'why should i feel sad?'

~~wtf?~~

are you kidding me? -,-

someone did asked him before whether he do 100% likes me and he said yeahh

and this is what he reply?

you gotta be kidding me

~~thank God i gave him the answer earlier or i might fall for him later~~

oh and ya...

he didnt even asked whats the reason of me rejecting him

i've already plan on what to say

but

since he didnt ask

oh well :/

even his close friend asked why

are you sure that you're serious in liking someone?

maybe i shall give you an advice on it

okay, i shall just ignore him

i told lian hwe about it and she keep wow-ing non-stop

ahahahahha

spent almost the whole day texting with jonathan to discuss about sunday's plan

and end up

nothing can be changed

-,-

sighhh

missing the one and only day hanging out with C

hmm... its alright

i shall wait for cny :D

we'll plan a hangout and take many pictures ~~because i look horrible in the pic i took with him~~

and

jia yi was trying to make me jealous -.-

saying that C called her right after she texted him

telling me over and over again

repeatedly

thanks yo -.-

dear lian lene,

i also dont really know why is everyone having love affairs x)

maybe its lovey dovey mood right now?

you'll understand how we felt when you think of *COUGHS*

i need a strepsils

teeheee

dear lian hwe,

who are you talking about at your latest post?

sound so emo :/

ps: i saved the picture of us as my phone's wallpaper. kyaaaaaa so cute *heart melts*

toodles :)

GatherinG

2011-12-28T10:09:00.000-08:00

went to old jusco and saw someone wearing ming ti's 2009 shirt

got a shocked man!

thank God i dont know who's that guy

at the same time was on the phone with Jonathan and A

talking to Jo was okayy

BUT

talking to A was super awkward

there was a moment of silence for quite some time

then at the gathering

i gotta admit that im kinda trying to avoid guy A

and i dont know why!

but only first few hours

then back to normal

HE CANT EVEN REMEMBER MY FREAKING NAME!!! oOo

this is how you trying to make an effort?!!
get used with my name first -.-

MYGAWDDDDD ~~im freaking pissed off~~

and

jia yi told him bout something like trying to put effort

but it seems that it didnt work

maybe because i was trying to avoid him?

but he do care about me :)

enjoyed myself with guy A, andy and jia yi

till

C came

i gotta admit that im kinda happy *blushes*

then had fun in the pool,

talking

laughing

and sharing stories

then later at night, went to mamak stall nearby

with Jonathan, Andy, C, shaun, A and jia yi

thanks to the limitation of food, we're freaking hungry -.-

ordered drinks and C actually ordered like 3 drinks within 1 hour

and im like O.O

seriously?

keep ordering for drinks non stop

we talk and laugh again x)

then jia yi went back

but we still continue talking and laughing

we planned to take pictures in group

but

end up

me and jo taking pictures with everyone

i look weird in every photo -,-

maybe because im fat and my hair is superb messy

but who cares?

everyone have seen the ugly side of me

i feel like killing jonathan :/

i mean

he's trying to make things out between me and guy A

come on la

it will never work :)

besides, guy C was there

and do you know how awkward was that?

give me A CHANCE to make things out between me and C too lahh

~~today was the only chance i have :(~~

you cant just see 1 side of it

just because A likes me

doesnt mean that i like him back

OH YAA!

William did a confession to Liyana!

how sweet was that man?!! <3 <3

i just LOVE people confessing straight to the face

but not using electronical devices :/
its just shooo sweettt

and it makes me melt even if i dont really like that guy

i mean

come on

who dares to confess face to face?

it takes lots of guts and courage!

i wonder if he succeeded

awwww

its all about L.O.V.E.

ps: my heart seriously melts after knowing that everyone was couraging him to confess ;)

Rules for texting a girl:

1. Don't take too long to reply
2. Use good grammar
3. Ask questions
4. Use the :) face

im so stressed up:(
thats all im gonna say for now

toodles :)

WOOOTSS!

2011-12-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

fuhh

only few days after hwc and rumours spreading around like crazy already?

hahahaha x)

24/12

A posted a picture of me and him

and it seems that only 10 people like that photo o.o

looks like we aren't sweet enough being together la

hahahaha

it seems that A really doesnt have any intention to put any effort

everytime im the 1 who text him as though im the 1 who wants to get to know him

for goodness sake!

the way we talk is like ~~no connection~~

hardly makes me laugh like mad -,-

i dont like

all i want is a guy who can cheer me up with NO SWEAT at all

just like a JOKER

even when im down, i'll still laugh due to his stupidness

is my request that hard?

27/12

Jonathan posted a picture of me and C

and there's like overall 26 likes and im like whoaaaaa

unexpected but yeah..

if there's 35 likes, I'LL CONFESS!

~~*i have to think twice first*~~

hey, its not easy to confess to a GUY ya know?

i have no guts

call me a coward or whatsoever

besides, he aint gonna like me

or maybe im just not his cup of tea

im just hoping to see if there's any hints

even just a little :(

oh oh
and yeah
they posted a pic of C and a girl together
and there's like almost the same number of people like the photo
so it doesnt make me that happy at all actually
oh well :/

great!

now everyone knows who's C

and fyi,

please do zip up kayh?

spread around mine and i'll spread yours

i can be bitchy if i wanted to

so dont make me

toodles :)

Complicated :(

2011-12-25T23:20:00.000-08:00

A likes B, B likes C but B was wondering if only C would like her back too or has he given up after knowing that A likes B? C wasnt perfect. Neither do A too. C didnt give any hint but B(muka tebal) thinks that he might fall for her even just a little. B was just hoping that if only C would take a step earlier. :/ and now, B is giving time to A and herself to see how it goes between both of them. But B feels that it will never work between them. There's no communication between them just like B with other normal guy friends... its different from the way B communicate with tortoise which is so much laughter and happiness. Sigh. Complicated shit! B just need an advice. Should she just say no to A? Look at her phone and you'll found out who's C. :)

its all about HWC :)

2011-12-24T07:36:00.000-08:00

went to camp on the 18th and today only just came back

trust me

its tiring and im so damn exhausted!

first few days was pretty ~~boring~~ :P

then its getting awesome by each day

there's bond started to form between us

we're getting more closer and team work starting to form between us

and we only fight with asoka when we cheer ONLY

the rest, we're just having fun! :D

btw, im from ming ti group

dont know who's that?

google it :P

which part i LOVE the most?

obviously is the campfire!!

it rocks the most!

danced with daveen, ryan, yit huan, jia yi (but in the end left her coz icantrememberwho asked for a dance) etc ahahahaha x)

after that spent whole night talking with jonathan, darren and nicholas

damn AWESOME

i just love talking with them!

made me laugh like mad

and get to know them better :)

we even gossiped :P

they're just drop dead awesome :))

spend all night talking till 4 when the committee came to force us to sleep :(

its just too early

if can, mind waiting for a few months more?

till i feel the same way too

toodles :)

short post from camp ;)

2011-12-23T19:40:00.000-08:00

yes, im at camp x) today is the last day... But apparently gonna leave all of my new friends. They're awesome and i love most of them :D lucky to meet them. And the BEST thing bout this camp is that i get to forget *** completely d. Am proud of it. You might have been wondering is it because i have a new target?? Well, maybe ;) cant tell. Too many stalkers around me. Freaking creepy. Muahahahahahaha i'll post more later :) toodles

being helpful? Hmm think twice

2011-12-16T09:14:00.000-08:00

i thought you gonna help me in this problem which is unsolved and will never be. Till i view your profile and i dont feel that you're helping at all. You're making it worst. I was mistaken again in trusting someone. What a joke! :O but im still gonna act and see what will happen :) take it as if im having ~~pms~~ today. xD LOL! please make me hate you so that i can forget you :/ please

Lonely

2011-12-16T01:36:00.000-08:00

the girl who is crazy, hyperactive, laugh like a maniac, smiling all the way is LONELY?!
she has lots of friends around her and she's LONELY?!

yes, she is. :)

well, i just dont get it.

i'm always there when my friends are emo, hurt or cry.

but not always la. most of the time

what about me?

the 1 who used to make me laugh/happy doesnt exist anymore

the 1 who i used to trust dont trust me and neither do i trust that fella anymore

so, i dont really care anyway

most of them said that friends will be there for you

BOOHOO!

its not true at all!

who's there when i need someone to

listen

hug

cry on

talk to

no one -.-

im just so lifeless

when they're sad, i listen and give advice and cheer them up

when i need someone to talk to, they arent there

when i say 'hey :(' guess what they reply? 'wait ah'

and i waited

and they never reply

when im happy, everyone is surrounding me

when im not, WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY?

there's no friends word in my dictionary of life anymore

they are more of strangers that im close with

friend!

the stranger whom you get to know whether when you're in kindergarten, primary, secondary, college, university or even at work

i always help those who are in need

those who are down

those who wanted to cry out loud but holding back

but who help me when i really need them?

honestly, i prefer being with friends who are guys than girls
i dont know why

i wanted to blog bout this for some time d just that no words come to my mind

toodles :)

tomorrow's the trip!

2011-12-07T09:07:00.000-08:00

im leaving ~~tomorrow~~ or is it LATER?

kyaaaaa!!!

sounded pretty excited but actually i dont

-.-

i dont know why, dont ask

maybe i'll get excited when i reach the airport ;)

please dont curse me, ah jo x(

hopefully it snow!! 1st of december it snow weyhhh!!

i didnt experience snow before :(

i almost did! missed by 1 day

god damnnit!

aint gonna sleep tonight

wheeee~

well, the taxi coming to pick us up at 4.15 and i have to get up around 3 to think of what to wear, bathe, etc

oh yeahh~
if i sleep, i cant wake up
you know, laziness! ~~piggy~~

gonna be a midnight ghost :P

i'll update more if i can :)

i hope you guys would love to find out more

God wrote my friend's love story similar to mine...

is it how You make us be stronger?

because i already am :)

ps: please let it snow! i wont complain that its freaking cold :(

toodles :)

NEW cover :D

2011-12-06T00:12:00.000-08:00

2 days ago bought new cover for my phone at TESCO

hehehehe

there's black, white, red and purple

took the red 1 since cny is coming

ONG AHHHH :P

cant wait to collect ang pau, poker, mah jong, visiting && FOOODDDDD!!

T_____T

confirm put on weight again

ahahahha

okay, cut the crap. xD

here's a pic of it

red cover, red shirt BUT yellow nails ;)

this is so true!

ps: '10 promises to my dog' made me cry like mad :(

toodles :)

10 promises to my dog

2011-12-05T08:04:00.000-08:00

watching '10 promises to my dog' right now :D

quite NICE!

recommended by ah kong, ~~my public enemy~~

movies bout dogs are definitely my fav coz it just make us cry D:

feel the LOVE

ahahahaha

will update more tomorrow

toodles :)

Its 5.55pm :D

2011-12-03T01:55:00.000-08:00

yes, its 5.55pm when i was about to blog.

till i realise that i need to find an article on how to be thin.

ahahahha x)

well, i've put on weight ALOT and its time to lose some weight. :/

did some research before

but now find back again the article to get my dad's approval to follow

and he say its okay for me to follow

hehehehe :D

just hope that i have a strong will :(

i read lian lene's blog yst and it ~~suck~~

not because of her blog sucks

but

the google translater sucks

-.-

i dont know what the hell she was writing (maybe a little)

well, mainly because its in chinese

yeah, call me a banana if you want. ~~idontmind~~

*who wants her password, you can find me!* ehehehe

and you, i told you that im okay already

as in NEUTRAL

deep down, ~~i'd lie~~

i bet lian hwe haven let go completely yet, am i right?

dont hide, i know

HI LIAN HWE! ~~ihateyou~~ :)

toodles :)

KIDS & promises?

2011-12-02T03:27:00.000-08:00

I cant sleep at 1am.
Took a NEW book.
Flip through the pages.
Got a shock to see some 'drawings' on the first page.
I dont mind if its with pencil but its a freaking highlighter!
Who wouldnt be shocked?
till i realised it was the kid's job. oh well :/

taught my 7 years old niece the timetable of 2
gosh!
miss the moments when we have to memorise all these by heart
and get whacked by the maths teacher if we cant answer her correctly x)

"i wont let our so strong friendship to be ruin de"
sounds familiar?
feels relieve after you texted me this
look what happen now?
its ~~ruined~~.
well, not exactly.. i just dont know what happen to us
i just WANT our friendship back again.

ps: i wna go prom badly. buy new dress, new heels, new accessories, get hair done, make up, etc. D:
toodles. :)

New blog,New month, New life?

2011-12-01T04:39:00.000-08:00

Yes, its new and im still ~~noob~~ trying to figure out how to use it ;)

first of all, it may not as interesting as others and im just writing what's on my mind.

So, dont judge :)

Its december and i hope something ~~better~~ AWESOME will happen.

november is really treating me bad

well, not as bad as it seems

but

not talking to someone who used to chat with you day and night feels awkward, isnt it?

thank God i have a bunch of friends to keep me occupied

its my first time so what do you expect?

but im pretty sure that im okay with it already.

TRUST ME

toodles :)

Love Her, She Loves You Back

happy tuesday[?]

FAMOUS amos! :P

AWKWARD! :O

stalk AGAIN :P & list of stuffs

BASKETBALL rules!

Quotes :D

aiya...

new person in my dictionary of LIFE :)

the one i LOVE

CNY CELEBRATION!

nothing much :|

toodles && msg to the guys :)

open house YO!!! whee~

EUNICE, this is for you :)

being LEFT BEHIND! :O

its just so shitty :/

FATS!! :(

surprisingly, FRIEND

IDK why is this happening!

heck YEAH!

get your OWN gang/ friend -,-

badminton && zhi hwe's birthday PARTYY!!

laughable-DAY :D

sh*t!

BIRTHDAY present :(

message to my BRO

what else can i say?

13.01.2012

over-stressed[?]

DSLR

emo LOVE songs :(

stalking is AWESOME

nyehehehehe

so called I LIKE YOU :)

GatherinG

Rules for texting a girl:1. Don't take too long to reply2. Use good grammar3. Ask questions 4. Use the :) face

im so stressed up:(

thats all im gonna say for now

WOOOTSS!

Complicated :(

its all about HWC :)

short post from camp ;)

being helpful? Hmm think twice

Lonely

tomorrow's the trip!

NEW cover :D

10 promises to my dog

Its 5.55pm :D

KIDS & promises?

New blog,New month, New life?

Rules for texting a girl:

1. Don't take too long to reply
2. Use good grammar
3. Ask questions
4. Use the :) face